So yeah. I tried taking a nap today. It's almost become comical. I work out at 6-6:15 every morning most weeks and if you know me at all, you know how difficult that is for me - that getting up before the sun is up thing... Almost impossible. But like anyone else who makes fitness a priority, ya just gotta fit it in. So I've been doing this early morning sweat-fest for many years now. I have had breaks here and there but for the last 2 years of living in the South and discovering Orange Theory Fitness last March, it has definitely because a habit that I love to hate. I'll save that perSpechtive for another post.
Let's get back to that nap humor.... So I'm up early and don't always get to bed when I should (those 8 hours of sleep are just SOOOOOOO hard to come by!) so naturally by the end of the week I feel like a zombie and look forward to the possibility of crawling back in bed on Friday mornings for a little snooze. Friday also happens to be the only day I'm not running a kid somewhere (we homeschool but each of my kids take classes out of the house one or two days a week - and they're at different places - so Mon-Thurs is a bit insane). After my shower and and a little breakfast I quietly tiptoe back into bed as I cherish the quiet house around me. I mean I really feel like a kid on Christmas morning! Today I read my book for awhile because I'm usually physically tired but still pretty awake. After reading for about 15-20 minutes I start to get sleepy and it never fails that just as I'm starting to doze off, the children start finding me..... one....by.....one..... yes, it's never all at once.. It's a good morning kiss and hug and then just get comfy and close my eyes and.... MOM!! Where are you?? Another pitter-patter, good morning, hug (or dog pile on mom).. and then when the 'how did you sleep' and 'I'm just gonna lay here for awhile' conversation is over.. quiet. close my eyes. Then... someone is shaking me and asking to crawl in with me cause she is cold. But first she has to use the bathroom. Ok - I can get a few minutes of shut eye.... nope. she's back and crawling over my head and lying on my shoulder (which is usually sore from my workout) and digging her toes into my calves or thighs ---which REALLY HURTS..... and then ... good.. okay... she's gonna fall back asleep. Quiet. Peaceful. Still body. Her toes aren't in attack mode anymore....dozing......Then seconds later I feel like someone is staring at me and suddenly I open my eyes and there are big eyeballs inches from my head and then... I'M AWAKE! I'M AWAKE because she just scared the endorphins right out of me! Good grief! Don't sneak up on me like that!!! How many times to I have to tell you that?? And now my snuggler is up and hungry so get her food and busy with something and ....Do I even try to crawl back in?? Is it even worth it?? Well the sleep deprived monster in me says HECK YES! So jump back into bed... just start to get comfortable.. heavy eyes... muscles relaxing... ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW???? THE LANDSCAPERS ARE BACK AND ARE TRIMMING THE TREES AND BUSHES RIGHT OUTSIDE MY BEDROOM WINDOW???? CAN THEIR EQUIPMENT BE ANY LOUDER??? I thought they were finished yesterday??!!! If it's not the garbage pick up noise (which lasts forever since they stop and go every 3 seconds and the truck has THE LOUDEST ENGINE possible, especially when one is trying to nap), or the phone ringing, or a child calling, or my heart pounding with irritation....it's something else. So I guess this pipe dream of getting a little nap before I really start my day is not going to happen. Just accept it. Naps aren't for adults anyway, right? Why do I even try? Why do I put myself through the disappointment?? I'd feel better if I didn't even try at all cause not only am I not rested, I'm also irritated!! Well, I'll tell you why. Because I'm a dreamer and I will never give up on the idea of a beautiful nap even if deep down I know I'm just setting myself up for failure. Are naps overrated?? Well they are when they just don't quite ever happen the way you hope. But I'm not a quitter. And, truth be told, I adore the little cozy moments that present themselves when I'm snuggled in bed and I get extra love and affection from the little (or maybe I should say younger cause there are some big 'uns) people in the house. And on my uber-lucky days I get the chance to be almost suffocated (and kneed and elbowed)by my almost 6 foot 1 inch 14 year old son who, despite his moods and his growing independence, still loves to snuggle in his own way and in his own time. And I'll take those moments every.chance.I.can. Because one day I'll be home by myself more than I care to think about, and naps won't seem so important. And I'll then be wishing for just one more snuggle, one more dog pile, one more sweet, irritating, 'makes you feel so needed' "MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do you ever take naps?? Share your secrets if you do and you are good at them!!!
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